and if i’m forgotten 
i’m perfectly happy with all that has happened
and i still get laughed at but it doesn’t bother me
i’m just so glad to hear laughter around me 

and
i’ve already spent too much time 
doing things i didn’t want to
so if i want to drink alone dressed like a pirate or
look like a dyke or
wear high heels and lipstick 
or
hide in a convent 
or
try to be mayor 
or
marry a writer
smoke crack and slash tires
make jokes you don’t like 
or
paint ducks and retire
You can bet your black ass that I’m going to